They say just breathe.
I do, counting in and out until I can’t breathe.
She said she colours in when alone, she does half.
It’s not good enough so she stops.
They say do stuff for yourself, I try,
I achieve nothing but tiredness.
I tell myself seek beauty.
I walk, it makes the world an uglier place.
He said it was dead.
It died when I thought it was alive
We’re at the hospital waiting for the grown up to decide.
They don’t come, it’s only us.
I see comedy to find a smile.
There’s only tears, I tremble.
I listen to an old song to feel.
It breaks me all over again, press repeat.
The radio instructs me walk to clear my head.
Alone on the path, my head is more full than ever.
He says he’s tired of explaining.
Who to? You only told me and yourself lies.
Pull your socks up, the glass is half full, this is the worst it’ll be, be positive, eat better, exercise more, make a plan, breathe, be kind, be compassionate
I do all these things and am back to the start. Just breathe.