Nostalgia

This one is for the man who helped me beyond what he will ever know. For the moments of conversation and kind words. For paying interest even if fleeting. For showing me there is something more to me and new posibilites. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for your kindness and cheekiness.

Tram wires cross Melbourne skies
Cut my red heart in two
My knuckles bleed down Johnston street
On a door that shouldn’t be in front of me

Twelve thousand miles away from your smile
I’m twelve thousand miles away from me
Standing on the corner of Brunswick
Got the rain coming down and mascara on my cheek

Oh whisper me words in the shape of a bay
Shelter my love from the wind and the rain

Crow fly be my alibi
And return this fable on your wing
Take it far away to where gypsies play
Beneath metal stars by the bridge

Oh write me a beacon so I know the way
Guide my love through night and through day

Only the sunset knows my blind desire for the fleeting
Only the moon understands the beauty of love
When held by a hand like the aura of nostalgia

On & On

Heard this on a TV show, haven’t heard it for years. I don’t know if its the closest I’ll get to understanding my recent break up from the other perspective. Was this why he was so horrid?

 

All the songs that I’ve sung here
More often than you know
‘Cause you’re the lull that I’ve countered
More often than I’ve let it show

And I, I wish you would leave me
And I, I wish you would go
And I, I wish you didn’t need me
And I, I wish I didn’t love you so

‘Cause I just can’t go on
So please don’t do me wrong
No, I won’t do you harm
My love for you goes on & on

There’s no one else I want beside you
Give me a cold shoulder to cry upon
You’re never anywhere I find you
You’re never anything I rely upon

And I, I wish you would leave me
And I, I wish you would go
And I, I wish you didn’t need me
And I, I wish I didn’t know

But I just can’t go on
So please don’t do me wrong
No I won’t do you harm
My love for you goes on & on & on & on

No, I just can’t go on
So please don’t do me wrong
No I won’t do you harm
‘Cause my love goes on & on

And on & on
And on & on
And on & on

Read more: Longpigs – On & On Lyrics | MetroLyrics

This Modern Love

I’m just as confused by ‘modern love’. So glad to be reunited with Bloc Party, I feel like this is something I’d write in my muddle of emotions.
To be lost in the forest
To be cut adrift
You’ve been trying to reach me
You bought me a book
To be lost in the forest
To be cut adrift
I’ve been paid
I’ve been paid
Don’t get offended
If I seem absent minded
Just keep telling me facts
And keep making me smile
Don’t get offended
If I seem absent minded
I get tongue-tied
Baby, you’ve got to be more discerning
I’ve never know what’s good for me
Baby, you’ve got to be more demanding
I will be yours
I’ll pay for you anytime
You told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
Well jump on, enjoy, you can gorge away
You told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
Jump right
Baby, you’ve got to be more discerning
I’ve never know what’s good for me
Baby, you’ve got to be more demanding
Jump left
What are you holding out for?
What’s always in the way?
Why so damn absent minded?
Why so scared of romance?
This modern love breaks me
This modern love wastes me
Do you want to come over and kill some time?
Throw your arms around me

Walking Wounded 

I remember first hearing this song on the radio in the car. I think it was the Sunday chart show. I’d never heard anything like it before and it blew me away. I must have been 14 or 15. Twenty years later it still has the same effect on me and the lyrics mean more than they ever did! 

Walking Wounded

Out amongst the walking wounded, every face on every bus 

Is you and me and him and her and nothing can replace the us I knew 

Nothing can replace the us I knew 
And no, I’m never gonna let you go 

And no, I’m never gonna let you go

And now I know I had a choice though you never made it clear to me 

I thought you never felt it deeply 

Now I’m never gonna let you go 

Now I’m never gonna let you go

Cause I could have loved you forever 

I could have loved you forever
What do you want from me? Are you trying to punish me? 

Punish me for loving you, punish me for giving to you 

Punish me for nothing I do, punish me for nothing 

You punish me for nothing, for nothing 
Out amongst the walking wounded, every face on every bus 

Is you and me and him and her and nothing can replace the us I knew 

Nothing can replace the us I knew 
Now I’m never gonna let you go

Now I’m never gonna let you go

And now I know I had a choice though you never made it clear to me 

I thought you never felt it deeply 

Now I’m never gonna let you go 

Now I’m never gonna let you go

Cause I could have loved you forever 

Oh I could have loved you forever 
What do you want from me? , Are you trying to punish me? 

Punish me for loving you, punish me for giving to you 

Punish me for nothing I do, punish me for nothing 

You punish me for nothing, for nothing 
Out amongst the walking wounded, every face on every bus 

Is you and me and him and her and nothing can replace the us I knew 

Nothing can replace the us I knew 

Out amongst the walking wounded, every face on every train 

Is you and me and him and her, some days I think I could go insane 

Some days I think I could go insane

Flowers in December

Oh, oh, oh my heart. Mazzy Star so beautiful. I want to ride into the night on the back of a bike, go sit somewhere open and stare at the stars just because. I’d share an earphone, feeling the warmth of you next to me whilst listening to this. Hands, noses and lips cold, cheeks flushed pink. And I never thought I was a romantic. 

Before I let you down again
I just want to see you in your eyes
I would have taken everything out on you
I only thought you could understand

They say every man goes blind in his heart
And they say everybody steals somebody’s heart away
And I’ve got nothing more to say about it
Nothing more than you would me

Send me your flowers of your December
Send me your dreams of your candy wine
I got just one thing I can’t give you
Just one more thing of mine

They say every man goes blind in his heart
They say everybody steals somebody’s heart away
And I’ve been wondering why you let me down
And I been taking it all for granted

The Privateers 

This takes me back to long car journeys with Emma. More Bird loving…
Don’t sell me anything 

Your one time offer, so uncalled-for 

You call it peace of mind 
Cause I can see your house from here 

 Now all the leaves have fallen, dear 

I can see you’re just a little privateer 

As your confession draws more near
Time and again, I find I’m listless 

Or rather, fistless 

In time, oh, that’s what I find 
So carry me to Mecca 

With what you may divine 

Take me with you, take me with you 

Don’t leave me behind 
Oh cause I, I don’t want your life insurance 

Home, auto, health, flood, and fire insurance 

Oh, just make, please make this basic inference 

And speak of me in the present tense 
Oh cause I, I can see your ships from here 

Now all the weather’s so bright and clear 

I can see you’re just a little profiteer 

As your confession draws more near 
As your confession draws more near 
As your confession draws more near

Jealous Guy

Old words new version. Both John Lennon and Hurray For The Riff Raff. You speak from my heart.

 

I was dreaming of the past
and my heart was beating fast
I began to lose control
I began to lose control
I didn’t mean to hurt you
I’m sorry that I made you cry
Oh my I didn’t want to hurt you
I’m just a jealous guy

I was feeling insecure
You might not love me anymore
I was shivering inside
I was shivering inside
Oh I didn’t mean to hurt you
I’m sorry that I made you cry
Oh my I didn’t want to hurt you
I’m just a jealous guy

[Whistling]

I didn’t mean to hurt you
I’m sorry that I made you cry
Oh my I didn’t want to hurt you
I’m just a jealous guy

I was trying to catch your eyes
I thought that you were trying to hide
I was swallowing my pain
I was swallowing my pain
I didn’t mean to hurt you
I’m sorry that I made you cry
Oh my I didn’t want to hurt you
I’m just a jealous guy
watch out baby I’m just a jealous guy
Look out baby I’m just a jealous guy

Acts Of Man

Trust Midlake to pen something so great. It mirrors my yearning to return to something simpler. My ground has broken open, from the inside I want to be inside and part of it.
If all that grows starts to fade, starts to falter
Oh, let me inside, let me inside, not to wait
Let all that run through the fields through the quiet,
Go on with their, own with their own hidden ways

When all newness of gold travels far from
Where it had once been,
Born like the earth over years
And when the acts of man
Cause the ground to break open
Oh, let me inside, let me inside, not to wait

Great are the sounds of all that live
And all that man can hold

If all that grows starts to fade, starts to falter
Oh, let me inside, let me inside, not to wait
Great are the sounds of all that live
And all that man can hold

Great are the sounds of all that live.

The Snow Leopard

This one is for my beautiful super moon tonight.

Written about reading Peter Matthiesen’s book of the same title:

“I wanted to write a song that reflected the exalted/frustrated way I felt when reading the book, rather than responding to it in a more literal way. Did you see the “Planet Earth” footage of a snow leopard hunting in the Himalayas? So surreal and beautiful…”

The way is to climb
the way is to lie still
and let the moon do its work on your body

and then to rise
through forests and oceans of lives
and through the way of the black rocks, splitting, wide,
and flow
ten thousand miles.”

well, I’ve had enough,
wasting my body, my life
I’ll come away, come away from the shallows

but can this sullen child,
as bound as the ox that i ride,
climb to the heart of the white wind, singing, high,
and blow
through my frozen eyes?

The Hill

The past few days are the biggest rollercoaster. I’ve laughed and cried with people all week and discovered that I maybe a ‘good’ person. I’m finding that bit hard still. I realise how much I am still learning and unlearning. The boat has been nudged in a slightly different direction and though I’m still me it’s moving somewhere slightly different.

I have more love and thanks and respect than in humanly possible for strangers who have shown me nothing but kindness. Friends for life even if we never meet again, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. You know who you are if you read this, as I hope you will.

I still don’t feel at all well and last night almost wobbled off this world but I I know there is more and the light that was so painfully snubbed out recently is returning.

Markéta Irglová says it better than I ever will..

Walking up the hill tonight,
When you have closed your eyes.
I wish I didn’t have to make all those mistakes, and be wise.
Please try to be patient, and know that I’m still learning.
I’m sorry that you have to see the strength inside me burning.

Where are you, my angel now?
Don’t you see me crying?
And I know that you can’t do it all!
But you can’t say I’m not trying.
I’m on my knees in front of him!
But he doesn’t seem to see me.
With all his troubles on his mind, he’s looking right through me.
And I’m letting myself down beside this fire in you!
And I wished that you could see I have my troubles too!

Looking at you sleeping,
I’m with a man I know.
I’m sitting here weeping, while the hours pass so slow.

And I know that in the morning, I have to let you go.
And you’ll be just a man once I used know.
For these past few days someone I don’t recognize.
This isn’t all my fault!
When will you realize.